September 17, 2013

mid-month pleasantries

how it's already half-way through september is beyond me. while i am currently sick and haven't seen anything but my bed for the last several days, i was super thankful for a trip up to boston last week, mostly to put in long hours at work to get my project over a big hump. it did allow me to spend my evenings with a few friends as i guest-room/couch-surfed, and i got to breathe in some fall air. the next trip will hopefully entail more free time to visit with people and do fun things.

that being said, it was kinda overwhelming to be back and see everyone i would normally see on a regular day...like i was just away for a long weekend and nothing had really changed (and like i'd lived the previous 6 weeks in an alternate universe). i left during a really hard time for most of my friends/community, and it still felt fresh.

today, i signed an offer letter for a position at a small company in downtown austin. it felt bittersweet, like the transition is at the point of becoming final, the daily tie to boston life will be cut short fairly soon. i'm hoping it won't be too hard to be both sad in missing my peeps and the memories i've made there as well as excited and looking forward to building something here.

being sick in a new place where no one really knows (to therefore care) has been a bit "doomy and gloomy" and as i crawled out of bed earlier today for another glass of OJ, i took a brief look around at the mess, the glasses and mugs, the scattered casings of the medicine i've been taking, the unpacked bags, and the remnants of the food i've been barely able to eat, and i thought, man, the unashamed state of a single person in the deep waters of a cold. no propriety in what i look like or am living in, and a deep cleaning on my to-do list before anyone is allowed over. unless they want to come over while i'm still sick, with a pick-me-up gift. in that case, unashamed.